New Year's Resolutions

So as this year comes to a close, I of course, as well as millions of others think back on the past year.
 
My 2011 wasn't so great.  In fact, a lot of bad things happened.

My grandfather died of cancer in the spring.

One of my good friends and friend of the family also passed away due to complications of cancer.  She struggled for a very long time and had a terrible family who didn't care for her.  Her son was an ungrateful, reluctant care-taker to his mother.  Her brothers and sisters only wanted money and things from her.  She died in the spring as well and I can only hope she is resting peaceful somewhere whenever her Heaven is.  I miss Rosemary dearly and think of her often.  I wish she was still here.

One of my other friends just completely flaked out on me and we are no longer friends.  He kept telling me he wasn't as good a person as I believed, but I never believed that.  I think he wanted to prove it to me this year.  I still only wish him the best of everything and hope he finds a place of happiness in life somewhere.  I still miss his friendship.

One of my best friends I lost as well to circumstance.  I always knew she was capable of being very cold to others, but I never thought she would be cold towards me.  It turned out, when I went to her to pour out my heart and voice concerns about our friendship, she never took any responsibility for her actions and she never apologized for hurting my feelings.  She laid the blame at my feet and said my lack of speaking up sooner caused the death of our long, close friendship.  I miss her everyday and wish things had turned out different between us.  I didn't want to throw away a decade long friendship, but, I guess she did.  She went out of her way to tell me she'd been fine without me and losing our friendship wasn't going to hurt her.  She shocked me as well by implying I was an ignorant racist, which couldn't be farther from the truth.  My speaking up has caused a lot of pain and misery for me, but I couldn't hold onto the things I had for so long.  I was just so disappointed in her reaction to me.  But, it's done, all of it has been said and I don't regret being friends with her for so long.  She was very close to me like a sister and I can only wish her the best in life.  I don't have any bad feelings towards her, I just have disappointment like I've never felt before, hurt, and I miss her.  I will always have a little hole in my heart where our friendship used to be, but I also have some wonderful memories of how we used to be, when things were good and we would laugh all night and have a ton of inside jokes.  Some really special times for us that I cherish and I won't ever forget....yeah I'm going to miss her a lot.
 
I continued to bounce between two different states and have a challenging relationship with my husband.  I continued to be unemployed and went back to my heaviest weight ever....170.

I faced some real health challenges this year as well as financial ones.  I am just glad that I got a clean bill of health from my doctors after all my hospital visits and office visits.  The finances...well...that's part of my new year's resolutions, which is what this post is about after all.

1.  I will not eat any processed sugar in things like cake, candy, cookies, cupcakes, brownies, muffins, etc. until September (my birth month).

2.  I will not buy anything unnecessary until August (when Halloween merchandise starts to be released).  Pay down some debt.

3.  I will not drink any kind of soda at all this year.

Then there's always the usual things I try (and one brand new one!): better myself any way I can, post right here on my blog every single day, swear less, take better care of myself, work out more often, eat more fruits and vegetables, tell my family and friends more often how much they mean to me, try to be more positive, try to find work and support myself again.

So what's your new year's resolutions?  Do you even bother making any?
Let me know.  I want to hear 'em!